Wow, I have been missing in action for quite some time now. I must admit, I have become one of "those" bloggers that I so dislike and think of with disdain. Ahhhh. Ok, well, I am going to try to NOT be one of "those" bloggers again and am back to posting regularly. Things have been crazy! We had a family emergency of sorts, were gone for a week (didn't get on the Internet ONCE!), I was totally laid out sick for a week, and now my husband has been gone for over a week and won't be back till late this week. Crazy. Regardless, I have to admit, I have had a string of good, bad and just downright ugly happenings with my diet and weight loss over the past month.
Well, the good. I had one very good weigh in, coming in at 158.8! Yeah, I broke the 160 barrier, which has been a HUGE goal and obstacle of mine for a very long time now. That week I actually got my butt to the gym 5 days and stayed within my calories and, voila, the pounds just dropped off. It's amazing what happens when you actually watch what you eat and exercise. I mean, who would have thought that if you eat right and move your hiney that you will lose weight. It only took me 6 months of procrastination to lose those 3 pounds. Sometimes I question my intelligence.
Also, despite the very bad and ugly weeks that followed this remarkable weight loss and my trip home (read WAY too much high calorie eats) I somehow managed to lose .8 pounds over Christmas vacation! I do not think I have ever been so dumbfounded and utterly without words than that morning I stepped on the scale. I mean, c'mon, we have all been there. Faced with many days, err, weeks, of overindulging and little, err, no, exercise you finally bring yourself to step on the scale, having already mentally and emotionally readied yourself for that horrific number you are about to see - the gain, oh you know that you will have gained weight, you just have to find out how much. Well, I did all that and felt all that and then - I lost .8 pounds. Definitely did not see that coming!
Well, the bad and the ugly, because, well, I'm not really sure where the bad stops and the ugly begins or maybe it is just all ugly. Since the middle of December I have eaten like a complete fool! It started when, to celebrate my husband having finished his first semester of law school, I decided to get him cupcakes from Magnolia Bakery. We had recently discovered that Magnolia had opened a new store by Rockefeller Center which is oh-so-close to my work. So, I bundled up after work and headed over, ready to face the long line of tourist and New York Magnolia-ites. Yes, the line was long and yes, it was bitterly cold and to make up for it I ordered 6 cupcakes. Yes, that is right, despite having full intentions of only getting 2, one for me and one for hubby, I ordered 6 - in assorted flavors, of course. We then proceeded to eat 2, each, that night and 1 the next morning for breakfast! Well, let's just say it all went downhill from there.
I hadn't gotten any groceries, knowing we were going out of town early the next week. So, we lived on delivery and pizza for 5 days. Then, we headed to my parent's house, where I spent another 5 days eating the most insane amounts of food. Now, I have to explain, my mom, though I love her dearly (and her cooking) thinks that the best way to show how much she loves and misses her kids is to cook inordinate amounts of food every time we come home! I also come from a small town family where my mom still cooks "home cooked" meals like she had growing up. So, we had plenty of biscuits and cookies and banana bread and carrot cake, oh and the most delectable and addictive Mexican food that you can only get at a singular restaurant in a small town outside of my hometown. Now, I can't blame everything on my mom's cooking because two of these indulgent meals I cooked myself. Well, one was actually healthy, but the other, Christmas brunch, totally unhealthy!
To make matters worse, I didn't exercise a single time for the past 3 weeks! I have no clue why, do not even have an excuse why. Just didn't. On top of all of this, my husband has been gone for the past week. Usually, well, maybe not usually, but lately, when he is gone I am super on top of my diet and exercise because no one is there to distract me. But this time, I reverted to my old ways of binging and eating disgusting food while home alone! Bleh. Three nights this past week/weekend I binged on completely random things. I mean, for pete's sake, I binged on unsalted saltine crackers!!! Who does that? They weren't even good.
I can honestly say those that these "binges" were nothing like what I used to do. I did not eat NEAR what I used to eat in a binge session. When I used to be home by myself I would usually order an entire Papa John's pizza and eat probably half of it, drink an entire bottle of wine over the course of an evening and then finish off a pint of Ben & Jerry's! Ewwwww, ewww, ewww.
This time, around I just kept eating random things. Like I had a 100 calorie granola bar, then a 100 calorie pack of pringles, then saltines (bout 1/2 a sleeve), then another granola bar; plus, I had already eaten dinner. Part of the problem is I have all this "junk" in the house we had bought for our dog sitter. I asked here to take with her what she didn't eat, but she left it. I do NOT keep stuff like this in my house normally.
Chips, granola bars, cookie packs, etc. are nothing but junk that I can't stay out of - that is why I do not buy them. It is much easier when I am "hungry" and know that I only have fruit or yogurt for snacks, to ask myself "Are you really hungry or do you just want to eat?" If I am truly hungry, I will eat some fruit or have some hot tea and milk. However, when I have junk around, it is much harder for me to resist eating, just to be eating. I think "I'm hungry" when in reality I am not hungry, I just want to eat to taste a particular food.
Regardless, that is all over! I made it up this morning to the gym and got in a great workout. I did 1 hour of circuit training and then 30 minutes on the elliptical. I have also eaten well all day so far and plan on continuing for the rest of the day - and the week!
So, in short, I'm back!
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